Finally, finish my exam, however life isn't much the same as it used to be. Put in hard and soul to study neglecting my gf, friends, and family to get an A and -A. Worth it? Ticking hard in my mind very much on how are things at the moment.

But today, i'm a happy man as my gf bought me a lomo-cam. I can't wait to used it and play very it's feature. Love her alot, she has been standing by my side despite times when i neglect her for sch work. She may not be the most understanding gf you can have, but seeing her sure brighten up my life.

As for family, i feel bad and gulity, not spending time with my uncle. Hmm, never really accompanied him go out to shop and eat. Beside that, my parents, i never get to see them face to face for almost two weeks. The only time we see each other is evening, and maybe morning when i came back from project meeting and see my dad to work. School is really a killer for me.

Friends- I duno, kinda of felt lost at the moment. After talking things through, things seem to be worse then i thought. Sometimes i do think, somethings are meant to be kept and sometimes like what people always say, takes two hand to clap. Maybe i didn't clap hard? i duno. Just felt sad, however, i will still try. But maybe as people say, it is the end but i believe it is also the start of another chapter, it takes effort to move forward. Sometimes i jus wonder if it is ever true that friendship doesn't last forever when you grew older.

From my school project, i read on a book saying, Never be close to friends, however stay close to your foes- Sound weird, but somehow make sense. Ever thought that what are friends there for on the negative side? Most of the time it is because of your same thinking, of views and values. Friends has one thing different from your foes, friends will never reveal your bad points and weakness in you as compare to foes. It is very true, Hmm. i may have disappoint you all, but i do think in yr shoes and not that i don't or know that i had disappoint u. I had and did sacrfice alot of time and trying to fully keep all my friends satisfy. But lesson learn from here, you can satisfy everyone.

The phobia of been taken advantages from your friends is never good. At times, especially when you drives, i duno if anyone actually understand the feeling of driving. Sometimes u really think should u drive or should u not? It's not a matter if yr friends are close or not but i always thought that if i was the one sitting in my friends car that would be better alot more. I feel lonely as not many understand my stand at times. I maybe psycho in these, but i always feel that as i always observe my other friends whom drive that they never do the things i do as how i treat my friends. Am i silly or i shouldn't be nice at all? Only recently i got to know Brandon more, i feel that our thinking is the same, I rather people owe me then i owe people. Maybe this is what drives me crazy.

It is a sad true that, you can never satisfy everyone from the lesson learnt. What should i really balance then, School work? Get an B and smuggle through? I've realized that my girlfriend, family and friends are important to me, but on the other hand, how important am i to them? Understanding? How deep? Disappointment? How deep?

Hmm...Well, at least i know Su qing will be there for me, when i really need her.

On yah, Target to set after this very "cheong" study"
Exercise--> to lose at least 5 Kg in 1 months time, no bet just pure own motivation
Online Biz--> Change a new concept of web design and get more sales
Studies--> Maintain and get my remaining 1 module an A. My average GPA falling, want make my parents proud to get honours after all.
Girlfriends--> Pamper her and try to be more understanding, cuz i simply luv her alot
Friends--> Never say stop, but continue to "clap" as when i can. Coz i believe that they understands.