I feeling SO TIRED~!! What a weekend man...Tml i'm sure i gonna have monday blue at work...


Friday i manage to met up with huishi and sherman, well kinda of weird chatting with sherman as he seem to always give ppl the cold shoulder but then well he is still a friend of mine? Hahaha..on the other hand, huishi was serective about her friens joining us when i asked her. Hmm who are them??? i was daman curious, until sherman speak out something and i know what's the surprise...CLEMENT~! Hahaha, my BMT Recourse Bud~! Hahaha..Suck Cock Buddy, Guard Duty and Slacker of all. Hahaa..Never expect to see him indeed coz i was walking other BMT mates to organize something for gathering..Hahaha...Had a crappy nitz chatting with him rather with huishi..Hahaha...Coz we jus can talk~!..hahaa...
Well afterwhich i left to join my army friens at K Box for some singing chill out session. Upon reached, wtf a bottle opened, i think it's martell. Kozz..they all drank quiet alot, lucky not much left drank one or two cup but strong sia i weak drinker...n later tequlia POP~!..Wtf at Ktv, i can't believe myself doing this. Haiz,,a nitz i enjoy but also scary as i drink n drive...Better dun do it.


Sat, was alright...some chill out session wif calvin n his some friens and then MOMO~!..Hahaha..Man Man...the nitz was full of girls. We were down there standing and dancing and soon srrounded by girls~! Oh my GOD~!..I Like it but hate it at the same time. Dun wanna touched them incase they said i molest them *do i have the look>???* hahaha...Well we were dancing having fun and this girl wif her frien crash party sia...Cum btw My frien and me and grabbing our attention..Kozz..well but my frien went over to get to know the girl so alright wif mi but well guess wat she's 24~! hahah...Same thing like last time older girl came over to know us guys...Haiz..I suppose only older girls are more wild then the young ones? Hahaha..ANyway can't be bother to me clubbing is always about having fun not about knowing how many girls or watever.

Sunday, Niece Visiting~! New Born Baby from my Kuzz~!...hahah..Uncle Raymond...ANother Niece...i have actually got quiet a no. or niece n nephew...Well so really dman small size with quiet alot of hair for a new born baby, Let mi think, 5 day old? Hahaha. Small hand, small foot, They are jus cute. Hehehe..Can't tell if she's going to turn out to be a babe, her eye was kept shut most of the time, but she has a DIMPLE~! Jus like ME...Hahaha..Oh yah went Ikea for carpet purchase. Gonna Change my room during the time i clear leave..10 more weeks..~! YEAH~!...Hmm...tiring...Gonna sleep..Sianz tml nit class...*yawns*

Today met up wif hua and gerald for a durian trip at geylang. Happeneing sia, all the way to buy durian, due to it being cheap. But then the durian quality ain't good according to gerald as he got alot spoilt ones, as for mi i got all the good ones jus that they are small only. Hahaha, $10 for 6, not bad a good deal at least for me. Well after which i was suppose to head down for my Remote Control Car gathering for a round or two of drifting, but end up been late n miss it. Nvm wif hua and gerald in my car we drove ard in geylang in the search for CHICKENS~!!..Hahaha..Lots of nice babes standing there for anyone to PICK. WHITE and FRESH (AIn't that fresh also). Gerald wanna go down n walk ard, but i had enough walking in geylang for such things with my good pal last time, walking ard jus to see see...Haiz...Ah-hua was keen in going down so no one accompany gerald so we jus drove ard and head home. A tired nitz but was fun gathering wif hua n gerald..>We ain't GAYS...for your inform, good frien good bro~! Good luck in your Hongkong Trip Dawn n Gerald..Soon will be my turn..Hahaha

I start asking myself, am i that stubborn? Really stubborn to the core? Well the answer is YES!..I suppose i'm a person that i believe in my tot too much and strong that i dun take in advices and guide line even i do know they can help me and improve me in alot of ways. I just can't seem to break the barrier of being "that STUBBORN". I suppose i need to bring myself down and learn to be more felxible and relax, and that tense up to make myself in situation that i will be "stubborn" rather to open idea. Stubborn itself can be a good thing and a bad thing jus that a balance is required to make everything seem fine. I just have to learn and know that, facts of life. But one thing for i gain this time ard, be it lust/like/love is blind. Too many things u can't see or you jus seeing the wrong things . Many of your friens or when you can actually stand in your frien shoes to look back. You'll know why they know and why they say. Everything has it's cover up, it's jus to see that do you have the ablity to remove the cover and look it as a whole...(p/s: i will carry on with my life, it ain't hard but it also ain't simple. Know it sound weird, but isn't that life? Always making one confuse at time and picking yourself up back to the where u wanna go and be?)

Jus got home after my durian trip with my uncle to geylang. Cheap durians sia, from 50cents to $2 for one...Hmm I bought 6 durians from this stall and the aunty actually gave mi another one for FREE~!...hahaha..Hmm Aunty Killer? Or Durian are jus too cheap during the season...Be it or not..that doesn't bother at least i got durians for my parents to eat. They simply luv durians~! Anyway yesterday nitz was a cool nitz, went mambo wif calvin and his "new" friens and also my campmate. Fun, Fun Fun, and holy packed that place, imagine it's a wednesday and it's so packed like a weekend. The girls are so wild and pushy, i simply cannot stand such girls, they behavor like wild boar. Man, Man, jus gotta be more lady and gentlemen. Anyway i really enjoy coz it actually brighten up my day and making mi forget abt all things and have fun. Is't that wat it should be at this age? i know kinda of old but then young at heart, hehe.

I duno, life seem normal for me at the moment as long as no SMS is recevied. But then i jus got one today, hmm...a quiz..Dun really wanna care as i speak but ain't easy not to care. Signs of weakness, really makes me feel low morale and disappointed in myself. Is this what i want? Or What should i do? Qns here and there, even i know the answer, i jus yet to settle in. I need time i suppose but the SMS today...haiz...What's really going onz? Girls, should really not mis-lead guys..If u are reading this....It's a torture for me...I learn so many lesson but not really avoid such events..

Tot it would be jus another Monday, feeling monday blue after recovering my sickness from sunday. Hmm..well nvm tot one sms could actually make me high and low. Confuse, Confuse and Confuse..Haiz...Friens tell mi to continue or give up is all up to me, true. But i cannot make a choice at all. I duno why. I felt i was been make used, and no interest, now things come back to sqaure one with attention wanted back for wat i gave. I agree with my frien i need to settle this "thingy" as soon as possible, tiring for me and maybe her? I really have lots of mix feeling, duno where i'm heading too..In Love? or I'm Lost? Not my usual self...I have really no idea anymore...I suppose jus wait and see..if She's mine, she will be. If she's never, she will never be. Even no matter how hard i try. I just give my best for what i know....

Went clubbing today, everything was settle where to go; momo during dinner wif ah-hua. So i was gonna meet my campmates, calvin, joelle n peiling there. Well seem to be gonna be happening wif so many people ard. Went there early with ah-hua to get free entry b4 10pm. Kiasu..Hahaha..then bought some of my campmates in. Well there was some event thingy on levis, seem to be happening. Well as time passes, my friends all gotta to came in, but getting more packed and more friens were in their own group. Haiz....Kinda of turn off as we can't even dance nor move ard to find my friens...Most of the time is finding friens kinda of sux, can't even enjoy and duno where and which grp to join as all were my frien. Calvin got angry also wif his frien leaving and dancing in grps. Haiz...wanted to leave but end up staying and continue onz. ...Frien got angry for mi leaving, calvin wanna leave..haiz...Really duno what to do, got caught up in a big mess. I think nxt clubbing jus jio a few people and stay together, big crowds are hard to control.

Haiz.....Saw her there, dun really know what to say, jus a couple of normal Hi and how's life, blah blah.....Hmm..well got a sms, u mad at me? Hmm..well more to disappointment then mad, wats over is over. I suppose i had to learn to move onz, ain't easy but ain't hard either. Dun really understand, i gave so much attention when it comes to a halt, u wanna attention.

Today, i met up with a frien that i dun really keep in contact but kinda of click? Hahaha...Anyway i got to know her from my attachment at seagate when i was in poly. A nice girl, still remb she baked some cookies for me. Anyway, thats not the main point. She was stydying in sci degree and work awhile in that industry until recently she said she was interested in biz so she asked me alot on biz stuff, her old job, her job interviews in banking sector, etc etc. Tons of stuff she shared. One thing strike me, she maybe studying a diff field in Uni. and now so into biz. i gotta buck up and start catching up and not slacking. Hearing her experience really gave me the drives that i actually had during poly, it feels great; knowing where u wanna head to, planning, seeing biz in diff point of view. I hardly had chances to talk on such topics the whole nitz, hahaha. Too bad i dun have much experience to share, but only to listen and looking in from third party...The whole banking industry based on the interview she went actually grows my interest more into fin. but it's a really "BLACK" environment with TONS n TONS of money u can earn. Haiz, Man greed and selfish can sure direct one to it's grave.

Tired, Tired. Jus finish washing my dad's car inside out sia. i had spent like about 1 hr cleaning the whole car. But the end result was satisfying, seeing the car sparkle really make me feel happy and smart driving it around. God pray hard that tml doesn't rain, if not all my heart work will be got to drain.

Hmm...I think i have to admit, i really dun under girls already, or in the first place do i understand girls as i really think i had? Haiz. All the following comments are my view, pls do not take it serious as i'm been thinking about it for the pass few days...Girls from Venus, Guys from Mars. Guys are simple creature once u know what tickle them (sex?) almost everything is simple, Girls ain't simple creature; It's out look maybe innocent but inside the mind is where it get complex. Never ever know what their next move and what's going in their mind as they changes so fast or they hide it so well by acting blur and innocent. Girls, are nature creature that have even rights to them to be blur and innocent when any thing gets screw up and the Guys can never vent their anger onto them. Toking about fair in this world for Guys and Girls, dun think it's gonna work. But in BGR, is there really be fair to one another? Or it's jus Man itself that evil has gotten into us that much that everyone is getting self-centre? If it's so, i rather that Man has never conquer this world if so much evil tots had entered to surivor in this kind of environment.

Mon
Today had my first lesson for my Cert in Franchise (Biz) at NP. Sad to say it started last Wed, but due to some "reason" i didn't attend. Well, when upon arrival it's kinda of weird as most of them are nicely dress up as i think they came straight after work. I was in polo tee and jeans, kinda of slack compare to the rest. And the wrost thing was, i think i'm the youngest. Hahaha Some in their 40s, while some in their late 20s. It's a kind of experience that i don't how to describle. Everyone comes from diff working background with diff knowledge and ideas. It's really fresh but then to see them studying hard and working hard for this course kinda of awake me to buck up. Some of them are actually going for Diploma of Franchise Mgt, and one of the module is my Course Cert. Guess i really need to do some homework.

Sun
Went to JB with my Parents~! A long awaited family trip where we can get together for some MANY HOURS!. Hmm..Family is still the best. Well this JB trip was actually my relative house party. Some sort like a house warming. A BIG BIG bunglow at JB which cost about SGD400k? Hmm kinda of like a 5 rm flat for a BIG bunglow? Hmm, but in my point of view as INESTMENT, JB property is a good place to plan for retirement, resort, chalet but never investment. Property there can hardly sell to let you earn $ but instand make u lose $. Despite all their advertisment. Malaysia Govn. Law has clause that protect property invesment. Haiz, but then his house is really good for a weekend treat.

Sat
HAPPY BDAY SHELWYN~! (got your name correctly) Well know it's kinda of early as your bday falls on the 14th of July. Met up with the girls after their Movies at Cine the "F4" hehehe..The english version as i define it. Hehehe..Well drove them down to Sunect for our dinner party at Oli Dome. Well expected suntect to be jam as the NDP was on going for reheasal and had to shut the road down. We had to took a detour that tooks us normally 15-20mins to Suntec to become 45-60mins. Well so we by pass Marina Bay to get to Suntec through Rochor Road. On the way we saw FIREWORKS~! Park at the side and enjoy the beautiful fireworks that "brighten" the nit. Too bad ah-hua wasn't ard. Finally got to reach sunect and consume our dinner. A cosy environment, can bring girls for date. Well bought shelwyn a Chocolate Cake, which actually should get her brownies, as i think she prefer it more to cakes. Waited for Hua to come so we can go clubbing. MoMo was the place to be "HAPPENING". Been there before it was that "happeneing", kinda of small and werid layout of the whole club. Had a pleasant experience during the club expect for the gals as there was jus too many ppl in the dance floor making them hard to dance and party. Poor shelwyn also got hurt. *haiz* Well i'm gald she's fine rit now if not going to "FEED" her 4ever? Hahaha..Hmm k...A good Nitz even my mood wasn't there to club..Jus hate BGR sia...Haiz...

Life is always like a book to me. Every chapters tell you a story, it may continue from the previous or it may start out fresh. I suppose my chapter has end. Time to start out fresh. Back all over again.

Yesterday really enjoy myself. Thanks for gerald teaching mi fishing. Kinda of interesting and actually like fishing, alot of things you need to learn. Patient, but yet cannot be too slow must react fact to any changes on your fishing rod. The art of fishing really defines alot of theroy in life, this is how i felt after going through one nit lesson by gerald. Hmm, got time must jio people go fish, it maybe dirty, dark of what. But watching the sea jus give mi a peace of a mind, if i do get a fish as what gerald said, "When fishing, dun always expect to get a fish, if you ever do get a fish, treat it as a bonus. It doesn't matter to get a fish or not during finishing, it's the process."

Well, right now i still headache over where to eat dinner. Haiz....ANy good place? Hmm...Poor Mi, My Poor Wallet also. HAiz...The Process

It's it sad when we live in the present but we think of the past. When we think of the future, we often miss out the present. When you are at your present, enjoy every single moment. It can become the past very easily, and it determines your future.