Just celebrate finished my 24th birthday, an mid 20s guy already yet still schooling. Haiz. Need to BUCK up and faster finish my sch wif good grades and earn tons of money. Hmm....seem like life have change alot after my army and when sch started. Got it's pro and cons, however like my e-mail tag, the only thing that never change is change itself. Hope thing changes for the good.

My gf,

She maybe quiet and not out-spoken but
She is brave at times and stand by me.
She maybe sticky at times but
She care about me and concern about how i feel.
She maybe lazy but
She is smart at times that she woke me out of my thoughts.
She maybe a dreamer but
She can be clear about things going around her and me.
She maybe shopping online very often and spending alot but
She doesn't spend my money online.
She maybe not pretty but
She is the one i Love.

She is just my girlfriend.

Just a thought:
There are things in life you may need to reflect upon your ownself and to really think if you actually have think of it at all. Knowing your own mistake is the greatest lesson one could have learn. Have you ever thought what mistake you actually could have committed in a situation and embrace it with open arms? I know i fail as a friend, but how about you? Have you ever did it and never admit your mistaken and embrace it? Life is short, take it slowly and look things in many different angles and see for yourself. Things are simple as you always thought and changes is one that people do not adapt to it and learn when people say they can adapt, saying is not enough....I have grown to learn more and start to be aware of situation more then ever, sensitive you may call, but then, it's how you view it. Hmm.....I believe time will heal?...

P/S:
Have to settle Calvin birthday, maybe bake a cake for him? of muffins? Buddy are still buddy given no matter how many mistake i had made towards him....Luv him....*not gay lah* And luv my gf also...hahaha...

Finally, finish my exam, however life isn't much the same as it used to be. Put in hard and soul to study neglecting my gf, friends, and family to get an A and -A. Worth it? Ticking hard in my mind very much on how are things at the moment.

But today, i'm a happy man as my gf bought me a lomo-cam. I can't wait to used it and play very it's feature. Love her alot, she has been standing by my side despite times when i neglect her for sch work. She may not be the most understanding gf you can have, but seeing her sure brighten up my life.

As for family, i feel bad and gulity, not spending time with my uncle. Hmm, never really accompanied him go out to shop and eat. Beside that, my parents, i never get to see them face to face for almost two weeks. The only time we see each other is evening, and maybe morning when i came back from project meeting and see my dad to work. School is really a killer for me.

Friends- I duno, kinda of felt lost at the moment. After talking things through, things seem to be worse then i thought. Sometimes i do think, somethings are meant to be kept and sometimes like what people always say, takes two hand to clap. Maybe i didn't clap hard? i duno. Just felt sad, however, i will still try. But maybe as people say, it is the end but i believe it is also the start of another chapter, it takes effort to move forward. Sometimes i jus wonder if it is ever true that friendship doesn't last forever when you grew older.

From my school project, i read on a book saying, Never be close to friends, however stay close to your foes- Sound weird, but somehow make sense. Ever thought that what are friends there for on the negative side? Most of the time it is because of your same thinking, of views and values. Friends has one thing different from your foes, friends will never reveal your bad points and weakness in you as compare to foes. It is very true, Hmm. i may have disappoint you all, but i do think in yr shoes and not that i don't or know that i had disappoint u. I had and did sacrfice alot of time and trying to fully keep all my friends satisfy. But lesson learn from here, you can satisfy everyone.

The phobia of been taken advantages from your friends is never good. At times, especially when you drives, i duno if anyone actually understand the feeling of driving. Sometimes u really think should u drive or should u not? It's not a matter if yr friends are close or not but i always thought that if i was the one sitting in my friends car that would be better alot more. I feel lonely as not many understand my stand at times. I maybe psycho in these, but i always feel that as i always observe my other friends whom drive that they never do the things i do as how i treat my friends. Am i silly or i shouldn't be nice at all? Only recently i got to know Brandon more, i feel that our thinking is the same, I rather people owe me then i owe people. Maybe this is what drives me crazy.

It is a sad true that, you can never satisfy everyone from the lesson learnt. What should i really balance then, School work? Get an B and smuggle through? I've realized that my girlfriend, family and friends are important to me, but on the other hand, how important am i to them? Understanding? How deep? Disappointment? How deep?

Hmm...Well, at least i know Su qing will be there for me, when i really need her.

On yah, Target to set after this very "cheong" study"
Exercise--> to lose at least 5 Kg in 1 months time, no bet just pure own motivation
Online Biz--> Change a new concept of web design and get more sales
Studies--> Maintain and get my remaining 1 module an A. My average GPA falling, want make my parents proud to get honours after all.
Girlfriends--> Pamper her and try to be more understanding, cuz i simply luv her alot
Friends--> Never say stop, but continue to "clap" as when i can. Coz i believe that they understands.

In life, there are so many things to be done,

There are so many things to be shared, to be experience, to try.
There are so many things that one could do and manage.
There is only a few would understand their journey in life.
Many set their dreams and vision of their life,
Little do they know that is this what they want?
Or did they ever try and reach out to what they want?
In the process there are many things that want need to plan and excute.
However, one must know the true meaning that you are not alone,
many are likes you searching for their path,
but why not join hand in searching their right path.

Life, is not just yourself, spare a thought for the others. Selfishness don't bring you proud despite reaching your path of life.

However, you live your own life and why must once consider taking other advice. You live life once, afterall it's your life to live, no one has rights to say or bring you down.

In life, i believe one must strike a healthly balance, everything seem easy to be say and done, (true) however, if effort is done, you will see results, not just the short-term but long term.

It is true, sometimes in life you get very sick of all your surrounding and feel daman lousy. But one must know, that there are many others out there that is wrost then you. Don't be discourage, but be strong. There are many other things to be done still. However, cherish what is infront of you and not be blinded by other factors, such as greed, selfishness, money, power, ego, anger.

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I must apologize to all my close friends, dawn, jaclyn, gerald, brian, didi, jenkang, andrew, jerold, calvin, wai hon, etc, etc and my family, Uncle, Aunties. And also my most beloved person my DAR! Really very sorry people and baos. My school and online shop was really very busy and pack for the past few months. First was the roadshow, then came the mid-yr exam and soon will be the project. Really didn't expect myself to be so crazy studying hard given my lazy character. I only can really say a big SORRY *bow*.



Hmm, my mid-yr is over now waiting for my project and than final yr project. Finally one sem, gone. Gotta wait for 1 yr plus to graduate and start working, happy but sad at the same time. Hmm....Anyway, to all my close friends and family and my BELOVED one. I will try to make time as i can. Sorry for any planes i put, sorry for not calling you guys up to chit chat, sorry to forget yr birthday, sorry for almost everytime. Seem like i really did alot of wrong things.
My apologize to:

Dar- i will remb what you say and i wun't look at girls *winkz* I really love you alot alot alot,

Brian & Didi-i will catch with you asap before DiDi fly to U.S,

BAOS(Dawn & Jac)- Thanks for being understanding, - Keep up the good job!! Sat. we will have a good meal and maybe go cafe de lema? (Wrong spelling?) Don't worry you guys can SUAN me anytime and as much as you can,

Gerald: We will have our tennis and normal kopi session again,

Andrew & Jenkang- We will have a good chat soon,

My University friends (Ieting, Brandon, Audrey, Grace, Aozhi, Akira, Tim, etc- We will have a good time soon at club and drink till we drop. ZOUK on Wednesday! If everybody onz that is?,

Uncle: I will meet up with you to go eat, jalan jalan and sightseeing. And be there with you before the operation and after the operation. Standby you! Really sorry for alot of things, i really wish you good health.

Other friends- If i forgot about you call me, or anything. I will also make the effort to arrange outing and gathering.

Thank you everyone for being understanding and not understanding. Signing off, to do project and homework. Tons of it, haiz, Studying good life, working bad life, both seem bad, i must strike BIG SWEEP~! 2million and all of my families, friends and DAR will benefit!, Jac PRAY!!!

Prankister of 2006